Where Else Would I Go?
As Paul advised, I have strived to enter into God's Rest. It is so anti-human nature it is difficult, a real life wrestling with God. How can we rest in a life of such chaos, not just outside us but inside us? People do suffer and as we suffer it becomes harder to find spiritual rest. Every 'do something' in our reasoning kicks into gear, but the day comes when life hands you a circumstance there is just no budging, not with prayer, not with faith, not with steadfastness, some injustice so vile that there is no way to reason God into being in control this time. There comes a time, where in faith, we come to a conclusion. Alright God, if I'm just a vessel made for the trash heap, if my hope's not to be fulfilled in this, what am I going do? Unbelieve You? No, I will rest in my place, in my darkness and accept my powerlessness, but I will not like it. I will not like that You choose not to manipulate reality in the way I see as just, but I where else do I